why did you bring it here? tell me

june 03, 2019

do not pigeonhole me into your pain

or put past into these now places 

you contrive, this way, an energy between us that neither you or i can understand. for it is foreign land and territory,

even if we both knew these things to be true, at a time. they are not for us now 

i can feel that much for certain

as i grapple with nonsense and fear laid out before me. it feels like shame, 

as i watch it try to scurry into the shadows and hide. it knows it is not meant for this space between us, gasping for air in a place it does not belong. 

why did you bring it here? tell me 

call it by it’s name and please ask it to leave, 

i can almost hear (it) before you say, “i don’t know it that intimately”…..